Try this, and actually perform a burial for your addiction. Write down your addiction and explain it and how it messed up your life and the awful experience you had with it, including if your kids were taken or you lost a spouse or family because of it and put it in a container of some kind and seal it up!
Have you a support group or one Close supportive person to attend with you! Grab a shovel and start digging a grave for your addiction because it’s dead now and it is never coming back it literally can’t! Grab your pre written burial ulogly that says here lies my addiction, it was loved by me and hated by me and hated by all others…. etc…., and then toss it in the grave.
After its burial, say one last goodbye and you walk away without it and leave it there.
This is a great way to keep your addiction really gone and I hope y’all take my advice and it’s helpful to you because some people will be better able to understand that it’s not about to come back, it’s dead and that’s impossible dead things don’t come back!